You know the feeling.
The bubbles inside. The anticipation of what it could be. The fizzing that comes with the audacity to even think that what you deeply desire to do with your one precious life, could be a possibility. That it could give you all the freedom you desire. Not only that, but that you, could be the one to do it.
For me, identifying this was a SLOW burn.
It started not so much as desire but total done-ness and burn out.
After years of diligently climbing clinical and academic ladders, doing all the study (constantly) and running a host of other ventures, I was suddenly completely done with the push, the political play, the exhaustion, the diminishment and the lack of ethics that accompanied my career. Now, don’t get me wrong, I loved the clinical work. I loved the clients. I loved the strategizing. I loved the power of research. I loved the mission. I loved improving systems and outcomes. I loved the striving. At the time I also loved the excessive alcohol that accompanied most afternoons. And I loved the incredible, caring, compassionate, intelligent people I worked with along the way.
But the balance tipped.
One day I was standing in a 5th floor conference room on a phone call to a friend. The words “I don’t want a job any more” fell out of my mouth; much to my surprise and his. I really had no idea what it meant. But I now believe this was the ignition of my sovereign spark. My nudge (well more slap in the face) onto my own path.
I was definitely nudged, but my brain couldn’t compute. For a long time I tried to convince myself that I was in fact wrong, and the path I had been working so hard to walk all these years, was in fact correct. It wasn’t.
6 months later I left my job. I finished the PhD and on pushing submit (literally), I knew I was done done. The irony does not escape me.
I kept searching. Life happened. The search slowed. Then it began again. The cycle continued.
Pretty early in the piece, probably when I knew I wasn’t going to return after the PhD, I knew exactly what I wanted to do. I wanted to lead other women out of the matrix. Into their own Wilde Forme®. Into a life guided by their Knowing. Into their sovereign self, business and life.
I knew this. Deeply.
And I was terrified. Silently. So silently I didn’t even realise. I was terrified that I didn’t know enough. I was convinced I was not qualified enough. I needed to learn more and more and more. This wasn’t only fear, it was somatic freeze that kept me stuck in a look of seeking and productive procrastination for a long time. Until, I got sick. All of this in retrospect was relatively unsurprising. My body had never felt safe with me expressing my truth, let alone living it; largely in part to the incredible hierarchy I studied and worked within for so many years. The cycle of seeking, pouring my energy outwards and procrastination added to the freeze to completely deplete my already fried nervous system. I crashed.
I stopped. I had failed.
I healed.
But The Call did not vanish. And after 2 years I was ready to begin again. In a whole new, embodied, grounded, truth led, sovereign way.
And so I did.
And here we are.
My mission now is to give you all the tools I wish I had. All the tools you need to anchor so deeply in your own Knowing that you are unshakable. To anchor fully into your own desire led Manifesto, your mission, your path, that you do not waver. To simply determine the practical strategy to actually begin to build your lean, sovereign empire, or side hustle, or whatever the hell you want. And to walk together into ever more sovereignty.
So, these are the first steps.
Step 1: Sink into your body. Out of your mind (walk in nature if you need to) and ask yourself these questions to identify your sovereign spark, your ignition point.
What do I care so deeply about that it never leaves me?
Why does this matter so much to me (go deep deep, what is the true root reason)?
What is the wildest dream I can identify for me, my work and my life?
Good, now put this into a sentence if it feels good to do so:
"I deeply desire to………………………………….. because it will mean……… for me and my life and it will ……………………………….”
Sit with this if you need to. Let the answers unfold. Take your time.
Note: this may not make any sense to your mind yet. If so, good, you are most likely heading in the ‘right’ direction (your mind can only understand what it has already experienced not what you are creating)!
Step 2: Believe yourself.
Believe that your desire is your guide. Know that this is possible for you. Please don’t use the time and money I did by not believing. It is a true waste.
If you are ready to access deep personalised 1:1 intuitive medicine, somatic grounding and sovereign business strategy to develop your personal sovereign blueprint and runway, you can join me inside the week long Genesis container.
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In sovereignty,
Lucy
Lucy Weatherburn (PhD)
Founder - Wilde Forme®